Dear Prolific Mother-Lover

Dear Prolific Mother-Lover,

I am a you, Prolific Mother-Lover. I am. Most people don't really know that because I don't share a lot of what I do, but I am a you, indeed. And I think it's high-time that I share that with the world. Or at least the reader(s) of this particular blog - don't you, Prolific Mother-Lover?

I was thinking about sharing some of my newest creations with my reading public in my last post, but then I decided against it. Since I tend to be a you, but not a GOOD you - it seemed a bit much to make people listen to everything. Especially since part of my being a you means that I constantly start new projects before I've fully ironed out the previous one - leaving an endless pile of not-quite-finished work that pride keeps me from sharing. The problem being, of course, that that just means I leave them unfinished and continue on without having the full motivation to complete them adequately. And that's a problem.

Because I was all set to push through on an updated rendition of "the Prince" (just as my Loyal Reader - and the Sis - suspected), but that seemed silly with other unfinished works lying around. So I came up with a plan - a very similar plan to the one that made this blog come into existence in the first place.

The plan is one to get me to take my music a little more seriously than I currently do. Sure - I love doing it, and I am a you, but I don't take it seriously enough to fully produce my songs to a satisfactory level. Because I currently make music for the simple enjoyment of making the music, it doesn't really matter what the final product comes out sounding like (mostly). If it's okay enough, I stop there and move on. Because it's just not as fun to perfect a couple off notes as it is to create something brand new from scratch. To work out a solo. To throw in some crazy new stringed instrument because I can. THAT'S fun. Not fine-tuning something that was fun to make and is only okay in sound.

So I need motivation. Just as - for those that remember - I needed motivation to write and edit my own stuff back in the day. The solution? This blog. An endless series of letters to concepts and inanimate objects (such as you, Prolific Mother-Lover). And it worked. As of this particular letter, I have now written 186 different short pieces for public consumption. They aren't the most perfect pieces. They aren't Pulitzer-Prize-winning literary masterpieces. But they exist. And they wouldn't have if I never started this blog.

So I figured I'd use the same idea to push myself to take my music up a notch. How? By continuing to be a you, Prolific Mother-Lover, but with a more conscious state of mind. I call it "a Song a Week." One brand-new song posted every single week. On average (because there will be weeks where I won't get a chance, and so I will make up for those by being an extra-you). And since those songs will be posted for some level of public consumption, the motivation of not being ashamed should keep me from putting up anything that's total crap (or at least not somewhat polished). That's the idea, at least. It may just end up with my reading public learning not to download the songs because they ARE total crap, but who knows, right? At least this way I'll stand a fighting chance of taking it seriously.

So does that mean that "the Prince" 2008 re-mix is about to hit the market? It may (although I kind of want to wait on my new bass guitar - which I failed to purchase this afternoon out of lack of options). But because I know that there are folks out there waiting on a demonstration of just how much of a you I am, I am going to throw a couple bones out there. Granted, these are songs cut to mp3 BEFORE I made my pact to actually do them up fully, but they will just have to do for now.

There are more where these come from (many of them with actual lyrics), but I want to be totally sure those are ready before I throw them out there. These two pieces are more "CVT had a ridiculously fun time making these" - as opposed to "CVT really threw his whole self into these." I may know my reader(s) well, but I'm not ready to throw it all out there yet. Not yet.

And so "the Prince" will be forthcoming. In the meantime, this is what I've got:

http://download.yousendit.com/443FE2F5556E9FC5

http://download.yousendit.com/FC27B2BC0943DFAE

Feeling It,
CVT

P.S. If my mom is willing to share, I can post the song I wrote for her birthday this past December . . .